Voicemail Story

Baby it wasn't intentional
You endin up at my voicemail
Just give me a minute to explain
Let me tell you the tale

When you put me on hold to take a call
I was waitin patiently
But then there came a knock at my door
None other than my mommy

She wanted me to clean the kitchen
And get off of the phone
And I wasn't to bring it with me either
(She told me this with a tone

To make sure that I understood
That she wasn't playing with me)
And so I had to hang up the phone
Though you weren't on the line, you see

And when I came back after I was done
I saw that I had 9 missed calls
And two of them were from you, so
I said forget the rest of them all

And I tried to call you back right then and there
But you didn't pick up your cell
Then I tried again later unsuccessfully
And that's when my mood just fell

Then I started to think you were angry with me
And I started feeling quite down and sad
And I was hoping that I was wrong becuz
I didn't want my Evvie poo to be mad

So I'm sittin here waitin for a return call
Cuz I'm afraid to call you more
And if I fall asleep without hearin your voice
I think I'll know the score

So Evan if you can read my mind
Please call me A-S-A-P
Becuz I know I won't sleep very well
Thinkin you're mad at me

Sleepin Together

I'm layin here in my bed
Listenin to one of our songs
I'm feelin kinda good right now
But also kinda wrong
Cuz I'm feelin that tonight
I might end up goin to bed
Without hearin your sexy voice
In my ear or in my head
Well, there's no need to be sad
We've got plenty of time
Cuz today we made it official
And now, you're mine, all mine
But still I wanna fall asleep
With your voice as the last thing I hear
Cuz when we fall asleep together
It makes me feel you'll forever be near
And I'd love to have you as mine
Until forever and always
And later in life fall asleep beside you
From "I Do" til the end of our days
And I can see us together forever
In my mind's sight
But for now all I wanna do
Is fall asleep together on the phone tonight

Daydream

As I sit in this desk
And stare off in space
I'm thinkin of you
Envisionin your face
Wonderin what you're doin
Wishin I was there, too
Wonderin if you're sittin there
Thinkin of me, too
I miss hearin your voice
The inflection and the tone
Even though I talked to you all last night
Fallin asleep on the phone
You probaby don't know the extent
Of what I'm feelin for you
Soon enough you will, though
And maybe feel the same way too
But for now I'll make do with
Long talks on the phone and the computer screens
And although I try to concentrate
You'll be here with me in my daydreams

Fuck You

You played with my heart
And that's unforgivable
It's not a toy for you to play with
Then put back on the shelf when you're done

I put my feelings for you out there
For the world to see
Wearing my heart on my sleeve
Because I sincerely thought that you were the one

You acted one way to my face
Flirtin like you liked me
Like you were going to be my man
Then turn around and front behind my back

But I found out about it
You should've known that I would
Talkin bout me to my friend and my cuzzin
Should've know that she, at least, wouldn't cut you any slack

So now I know the truth
All the illusions were a front
You blatantly blew those away
Did it with a lot of spunk, too

So all I have left
Are visions of what could've been
And a whole lot of anger
So basically, nigga, fuck you!

So Now You Know

Today I saw you
And I just froze
Your simple presence
Curled my toes
I wanted to hug you
And squeeze you tight
Wrap your arms around me
To make everything all right
I looked into your eyes
It was then that I knew
Whatever the outcome
I had to tell you
It was kinda hard
To tell you this
But I figured that
It was worth the risk
So I came out with it
Told you how I feel
No ifs ands or buts
My feelings are real
Then you looked at me
And asked me why
I didn't just tell you...
"Well I'm kinda shy"
Then you sorta smiled
And said "okay"
And later gave me a hug
Before you went away
And I'm hoping now
A relationship will grow
My secret's out
So now you know

I Need You In My Life

Boy can't you see that
I need you in my life?
To hold my hand through turmoil,
To hug me tight through strife.
I think about you all the time,
I hold you in my heart,
I've felt this way about you
Almost from the very start.
I hold my feelings for you
Deep in my soul inside,
From the feelings for you
I can run but never hide!
I'm so weak in the knees,
I'm losing all control,
I want you to be mine, all mine,
For me to have and hold.
I'm revealing to you now
The way I really feel...
I need you in my life,
And that's the real deal!

Recollection

As I sit here, recalling today
I remember how you looked my way
You smiled at me and made me weak
As I daydreamed of a simple kiss on the cheek

If only I could make see
Just how much you mean to me
Maybe we could be together
And our love could last forever

I would hold you close and tight
And show you how I feel all through the night
But I'm too shy to tell you how I feel
So it may be a while before you know the deal

Good Lovin'

This story is the story of
The things you do to me
To make you know just what it is
And just to let you see
To show you how I feel after
You do what you do
To let you know the deal after
The good lovin' is through
I come down the street
Just anticipating your touch
The good lovin' that you give to me
Could never be too much
I think of it late at night
When the whole world is asleep
The way you put it on me
The way you plunge so deep
You're the one who holds the record
For putting it down the most
You do it to me so good
Other guys to me turn ghost
You hold a special place for me
Cuz you simply are the best
So I'ma keep comin back to you
And-- well, you know the rest

Touch

Touch me, tease me
Kiss me, please me
Keep me, feenin
For you, even
When you, are near
When you, aren't here
Keep me, buggin
Off your, lovin
Make me, crazy
Come and, save me
Thinkin, of you
Wanna love you
Do it, to me
Baby, screw me
Don't stop, take it
I won't, fake it
Keep me, moanin
Mind ain't, roamin
Blow my, back out
Til I, black out
Hurt me, so good
Rough sex, so hood
Push in, pull out
Sex me, full out
Ass up, face down
Slow the, pace down
Make me, scream out
Leakin, cream out
Bodies, sweaty
Breathin, heavy
Want you, so much
Tempted, to touch

Wet Dream

Wrap your arms around me
Pull me close and tight
Lay me down and love me
All through the night
Fill me with your loving
Make me moan and scream
Baby me and you together
Make a perfect team
Go a little deeper
Make me tremble hard
If you push my button
You'll get a great reward
Travel a little lower
So you can taste my cream
It's such a disappointment that
This is only a dream

Boom Crush 3

You make me crazy
Want you to be my baby
The way you hug me
Makes me feel all tingly
Never wanna let you go
Just wanna let you know
Want to be your boo
Keepin it truly true
Will I ever have our love?
This is to my angel from above...

Sometimes

Sometimes I feel happy
Then it all comes crashing down
Sometimes I feel like smiling
Then it turns into a frown

Sometimes I feel like laughing
Sometimes I want to cry
Sometimes I think you like me
Sometimes I feel that that's a lie

Sometimes you are so sweet to me
Then all of a sudden you get rude
Sometimes it seems you're happy to see me
Then you catch an attitude

Sometimes I feel -->this.close<-- to getting you
And then you slip away
Sometimes I feel like running from you
Then you make me wanna stay

Sometimes I think love's as easy
As counting 1 to 10
Sometimes I have a moment of clarity
Then I'm confused once again

Sometimes I think we could be together
But will it ever come true?
Sometimes I think that maybe I
Just ought to go ask you...

21...

Another crush, another try
Another guy who doesn't like me
I thought maybe I had a chance
But his flirtation was just to psyche me
Cuz I'm realizing now that
It was just more wasted emotion
And liking him above all others
Was a waste of my devotion...


{{unfinished}}

Love Is a Strong Word

Love this, love that
Love me, love you, love us
Love is all anyone talks about
Fillin my head up til it wants to bust
Can't you people see that
Love should be seen and not heard?
And most importantly, realize
That love is a strong word
It's used so freely nowadays
Doesn't mean much at all
For those three words --- "I LOVE YOU"
Are used just to end a phone call
Love isn't what it used to be
Before, it meant a lot
But now, it's used to lure, to bribe
To make people do things they normally would not
See, me, I don't trust people
That use love as a bribe
Because their "love" isn't true
They're like a cheater throwing a faithful vibe
Love sucks nowadays anyway
I'm surprised you haven't heard
But again I say, just realize
That love is a strong word

Boom Crush 2

You got me hooked, boy
The root of my joy
Keepin me way up high
Feet touchin the sky
Way up off the ground
Don't wanna come back down
Keepin it really real
Tellin you how I feel
Showin you all my love
This is to my angel from above...

Go To Hell

You say you love me
But I know you're lyin
Cuz you would leave me
At the drop of a dime
Da hoes could get you
Because you're easy
Playin games with me, nigga
I don't have time
Ya think you're slick
But you can't see that
I see right through you
The lies you tell
So for all I care
You skank ass ho
Millard P. Forbes, Jr.
Can go to hell!

Boom Crush

Since the day that I met you
Something crazy I'm going through
I've got a crush on you
And boy you know it's true
So what the hell am I gonna do?

It was just another day
I watched the v-ball players play
Then I spotted you
And it was then I knew
That you would have to be mine someday

Your sexy body and your smile
Made staying afterschool worthwhile
Your personality
Is what appealed to me
And when I think of you, boy, I just smile...

{{Unfinished}}

Beginning of the End

Why the fuck
Was she in ya bed
You think I'm stupid
Got an empty head
That girl's a ho
She runs her tricks
The bitch is addicted
To all men's dicks
You ain't no angel
Got demons, too
But even so
I'm disappointed in you
You engaged in foreplay
With that skank ass hoochie
Then had the audacity
To blame it on me?
Tellin me its my fault
Cuz I didn't come through
But you knew when you met me
I had things to do
You knew I play sports
Had practice every day
But the only time you called for me
Was on the weekdays!
But on the weekends, when
I had nothing to do
My ass just couldn't seem
To get ahold of you
So you turned to her
That 7-11 ho
And let shit run
To see how for it would go
Lettin me think
All the while
I was the only one
Who could make you smile
You fuckin ho!
How could you
Claim you love me
But do the things you do?
Everything we had was bullshit
Won't ever be the same again
It ain't over yet, but for you and I
This is the beginning of the end

I've Had It

I've had it with the games
You play on me all the time
I've had it with the sweet talk
I've had it with the lies
I've had it with hearing
"Baby you know I love you"
I've had it with daydreaming
And always thinking of you
I've had it with being exclusive
Of everyone but you
I've had it with forgiving
Every messed up thing you do
I've had it with the fact
That you're trying to use me
I've had it with the things you say
And do, cuz they confuse me
You tell me that you love me
So why don't we go out?
The games you're playing with me
Aren't what "love" is about
So, I've had it with your game-playing
I know that you're not true
I can tell you one more thing:
It's through, I've had it with you

I'm Tired

I'm tired
--- Tired of your lies
--- Tired of hearing, "You're my one and only"
--- When I know it isn't the truth

I'm fed up
--- Fed up with your bullshit
--- Fed up with the games you play
--- And how I can't take my mind off you

I'm sick of this
--- Sick of lying to myself
--- Sick of putting on a front
--- And acting like I don't give a fuck what you do

I'm tired, fed up, sick of your shit
--- Tired of you
--- Fed up with deceiving myself
--- Sick of letting myself get played like a fool

Used

You took all that I offered
Offered little in return
You came, you saw, you conquered
Then left my anger to burn

You strutted away, smiling
Walking proud and tall
I thought I had you hooked
Until you didn't call

I laid everything on the table
I gave you my all
But then there was no contact
Which made my confidence fall

I put everything on the table
I had everything to lose
But, in turn, all you did
Was make me feel used

Dilemma

You're feeling me
Don't know if I'm feeling you
And I just don't know
What is a girl to do?
You're kinda fly
And fine to infinity
The problem is
You took my girl's virginity....

{{Lost my inspiration and never finished}}

Gone Again

{{The second part of a two part poem... Read Gone before you read this one :) It'll be so much better for your mental if you do!}}

The wind is blowing
Bushes are rustling
A feeling of uneasiness
Encourages him to run away
He doesn't run though
For he doesn't give in to impulses.
He continues on at his lazy pace
Even though his uneasiness lingers still.
The wind blows
More rustling leaves,
And a girl runs past him
Seemingly fleeing from some terror or other
That has apparently seized her.
The girl halts, looking
Toward some shrubbery that she has run past
Stopping and turning back
The boy stares into the night
Looking for what she was running from
Seeing nothing.
He stands there a while,
Wondering what she was running from,
Not comprehending the girl's terrors.
When he turns back around the girl is gone,
Though he had not heard her take a single step.
He advances to the spot
Where he last saw the girl standing.
There is movement in the bushes
Into which the girl had been gazing.
Trembling, he steps closer,
Then the head of the girl
With a look of horror
Mixed with great terror on her face,
Rolls out from the bushes
And rests at his feet.
Suddenly recognizing the reason for his uneasiness,
He turns, intending to run,
And in front of him,
There is a lightless black void.
He screams, turns back,
Only to find the bush, wide open,
Waiting.
Suddenly, his scream ends,
As he is swallowed into the center of the bushes
Into an unending abyss
Gone.

You Don't Love Me Like I Love You

Why does my heart hurt like this?
No, I'm not asking you
Cuz I already know the answer
You don't love me like I love you
You say that you love me
But only as friends do
And as much as it hurts to say it
You don't love me like I love you
I've loved you for forever
At least it feels that way
But you're acting like the OTHER--
Pushing my love away
And everytime I see you
I feel my emotions surge
I feel like herbal essence--
I've always got the urge
But you don't feel the same way
It keeps on ringing true
It hurts so bad to say it--
You don't love me like I love you

Moodie Rapz

M-double-O-D-I-to-da-E
Spellin out Moodie cuz yeah datz me
I'm dat chic wit dat hot azz flow
Bangin' vocalz beatz dancez & mo'
I take da flava, add da soul
Pour in a drop of dat rock & roll
Mix in sum reggae, turn up da heat
Now move ya body get lost in da beat

M-double-O-D-I-to-da-E
From da itty bytty state of CT
Comin outta da Heart-B-E-A-T
Livin in Bloom-F-I-E-L-D
Up in BHS every day of da week
Smart az hell but still not a geek
Tryna get da gradez and still make da noize
Want the whole world to hear my voice

Irony

What's going on?
You to fighting now?
Do you realize how funny that is now,
After everything that has happened?
After I liked you and you liked me
But SHE got in the way?
After you said yes to her
The day before you were going to approach me?
After you constantly complained to me
About your relationship problems
About how she neglected you
About how she wanted someone else?
After you stayed in your empty relationship
Knowing how I felt about you,
Telling me about it,
Not considering my feelings?
After I gave up and left you alone
And you called me every day nine or ten times
With me either hanging up or ignoring your call?
Do you realize hoe funny this is to me,
How utterly hilarious?
DO YOU?
And the thing about it is,
It's too late for me to rethink my decision
I'm going to leave you alone,
And you should leave me alone too

Gone

The wind blows
A rustle of the bushes
She hurries down the street, almost running.
Though she doesn't know who she is fleeing from
Or where she is going, she's still afraid.
she slows her pace,
Chastising herself for being ridiculous,
Knowing there is nothing to be afraid of.
The wind blows,
More rustling leaves,
And she flees.
Realizing that her fears are irrational
She stops and turns
To see who or what is stalking her.
Seeing movement in the bushes
She walks toward them,
Ready to face her fears so she can continue on her way.
As she parts the branches
A look of horror crosses her face
Then she is swallowed into the center of the bushes
Into an unending abyss
Gone.

What It Means To Be Moodie

What it means to be Moodie
Isn't simple, it's quite complex
Because that's what Moodie is...
Complex, deep, perplexing, contemplative
And Moodie is the kind of girl
Who'll be your best friend if you're worth it
Or your worst enemy if you piss her off
Moodie IS moody
She can go from upbeat and happy
To sad and down
To pissed off and fired up
To laid back and relaxed
And back again in 5 seconds flat
Moodie is selfish, cold, uncaring, unfeeling, and self-centered
Moodie is generous, warm-hearted, caring, sympathetic, and empathetic
Moodie is an angel, Moodie is a demon
Moodie is good, and Moodie is bad
Moodie loves with all of her heart
And hates with the depths of her soul
Moodie is sensible, sane and orderly
Moodie is irrational, crazy, and chaotic
In short,
Moodie is contradiction at it's finest.
That's what it means to be Moodie